For Khloé Kardashian, the path to growing her family has never been simple. After a high-risk first pregnancy and a public rollercoaster of a relationship with NBA star Tristan Thompson, Khloé bravely decided to pursue surrogacy for her second child. What she didn’t expect was just how emotionally intense, complicated, and out-of-control the journey would feel—even for someone who’s spent her life in the spotlight.

In a rare, unfiltered look behind the scenes, Khloé opens up about the realities of surrogacy: the loss of control, the overwhelming decisions, and the unexpected fears that come with trusting a stranger to carry your baby. Here’s what really happened when Khloé and Tristan hit their first major roadblock—and how it changed everything.

“It’s Her Body, My Baby”—Khloé’s Eye-Opening Realization

Khloé has always been candid about her desire for another child, especially after doctors warned her that carrying a second pregnancy would be risky. “Tristan and I made embryos, and I was told I’d be high risk if I carried again,” she shares. “So Tristan and I have decided that surrogacy is what we’re going to do.”

But as the process begins, Khloé is blindsided by a fundamental truth she hadn’t fully grasped: “Of course I know it’s her body, my baby. But I really did not put two and two together that that means she has the control—whether she would want to, you know, terminate the twin. Me not having control over that outcome makes me very nervous. I know it’s her body, but I still didn’t know it was really her choice. That might be really naive to say, but this is a big eye opener.”

It’s a moment of raw honesty that many intended parents never talk about. For Khloé, who admits to being a “big planner” and loving control, the realization shakes her confidence. “I’m definitely second-guessing a couple things. It’s just a little intense, this whole Zoom call.”

The Search for the Perfect Surrogate: “I’m Just Convinced Energy Matters”

Finding a surrogate isn’t as simple as picking a name off a list. Khloé pores over portfolios, obsessing over everything from musical tastes to stress levels. “You’re going to think I’m nuts, but I just don’t like some of their answers,” she laughs. “Like, what kind of music do you listen to? If it’s EDM or techno, I don’t even know what that is. I’m thinking, ‘You do wrong.’”

But beneath the jokes is a deep belief that the surrogate’s energy will affect her child. “How you are when you’re pregnant really plays a role—the energy you’re passing on to a baby. If you’re a high-stress person, I feel like it’s going to make your baby anxious. True is so chill because I really was so calm during my pregnancy. I do believe that.”

Sister Kim Kardashian, who’s been through surrogacy twice, offers advice: “I just picked and went with it. If everyone around you and the whole team is telling you these are amazing options, you have to go with that.”

But Khloé isn’t convinced. “I have to meet you in order to finally sign off. I’m a big person like that.”

The Therapy Session: “You’re Not Really in Control”

Before they can proceed, Khloé and Tristan must meet with a surrogate therapist—a step designed to ensure they understand the process and its challenges. The conversation quickly turns serious when the therapist asks about their beliefs on fetal reduction or termination in the case of multiples.

“If we’re blessed to have multiples, we think that’s in God’s will,” Khloé says confidently. But the therapist points out the ultimate reality: “It’s your baby, but it’s her body. She could terminate the pregnancy with any unplanned outcome.”

The news stuns Khloé and Tristan. “Oh, we haven’t—we never thought about that one,” Khloé admits. “Me not having control over that outcome makes me very nervous.”

The realization lingers. Later, Khloé confides, “I just got off a Zoom with a surrogate therapist. It’s just scary hearing a lot of those things. Kim just made this seem so seamless, and maybe for her it really was. I think she’s way less micromanaging than I am.”

The Overwhelm Sets In: “Way More Intense Than I Thought”

As the process unfolds, Khloé is hit by wave after wave of anxiety and doubt. “This whole process is incredibly nerve-wracking. It’s also confusing. It definitely makes me think about other options more. I’m starting to wonder if surrogacy is really going to work for me and my family.”

Even her mother, Kris Jenner, offers to help—jokingly. “I would do it for you if I could,” Kris says. “I don’t know if I want to spend my 65th year of life being pregnant, though!”

Khloé’s struggle is clear: “For me, this process has been so different than the journey with True because I like to control things, I like to plan things, and not being able to makes me very nervous. I just don’t know if I’m ever going to be able to find a surrogate I can trust.”

The Legal Side: “You Can’t Force Someone”

Khloé tries to get answers from her surrogate broker. “Can that person really choose to not do what I want? Because that’s scary.” The broker reassures her that while everything is put in writing—her wishes, the surrogate’s agreement, the legal contracts—ultimately, “You can’t force someone what to do with their body.”

The answer is honest, but it doesn’t erase Khloé’s anxiety. “That freaked me out. I feel better knowing things are in legal writing, but I just don’t like talking about this because I feel like I’m talking about only negative things. Everything’s going to be fine. All great things are going to happen. Everything is healthy, beautiful, in Jesus’ name we pray.”

Moving Forward—With Caution

Despite the setbacks, Khloé remains hopeful. “I think the key is to find the right surrogate, and when we do, it’ll be magic and the wheels will get turning. I’m not going to be rushed into it. I’m not going to force it. True is two and a half. I definitely want her to have another sibling, but I want to make sure whoever we choose as a surrogate is the right fit for our family.”

Her determination is clear: “If I find one even within the next year, I’ll feel good about that. We always want True to have a sibling close by age, but at the same time, we don’t want to pick the wrong person and be in a pickle.”

The Takeaway: Trust, Faith, and Letting Go

Khloé Kardashian’s surrogacy journey is a powerful reminder that even with resources, support, and experience, the process is never easy. It’s about trust—trusting strangers, trusting the process, and sometimes, trusting that things will work out even when you’re not in control.

As Khloé says, “We’ve got this. I do think this is the right choice for us, but I’m not going to be rushed into it. I’m not going to force it. We got this.”

For Khloé, for Tristan, and for anyone considering surrogacy, the journey is as much about letting go as it is about welcoming new life. And in true Kardashian fashion, Khloé is facing it all—fears, frustrations, and hopes—head on, with honesty, humor, and an unbreakable love for her family.

Stay tuned for more updates on Khloé Kardashian’s surrogacy journey and all things Kardashian-Jenner family.